Sunday, October 30, 2011

Nervous wreck

I went to talk to a neighbor today, whom wasn't home but the husband was. I wanted to speak to her about the school my daughter is attending and what could possibly be done with homeschooling. Maybe it might be better? This woman runs a homeschool out of her house, so she is just the person to ask.

I was such a nervous wreck. I cried when I mentioned my daughter's bullying and schoolwork. Apparently, I'm horrible with people - which I already knew. But, really? To cry? Since when do I cry? What.the.fuck.

Now, I feel like I made such an ass out of myself that I can't even show my face again in public. I'm supposed to call the wife later and speak to her when she is home. I'm not sure how I'm going to do that. Uck!!!! I just hope I don't start crying again.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

How much is too much homework?

My daughter started school this year, Kindergarten, and I was super excited to be finally sending her to school. She's attending Woodruff Elementary School in Logan, Utah. She never attended pre-K because we are obviously a military family, and none of the pre-K's had room in their classes by the time we moved there. Anyways...let's get into the actual school experience. Don't get me started on the looks I have received just because her daddy is currently stationed somewhere else. They act like I'm divorced or something. Crazy. Also, they required me to turn in her medical records FOUR FUCKING TIMES before she was allowed to attend. I've also filled out her emergency sheet SIX times since she started school.

My daughter loves school. The kids at school (mostly) like her. They treat her like their younger sister, and take an effort in teaching her things she does not know (like how to zip up her jacket). That's good. However, there is a bully in her class that she has come home crying about (everyday for 2 weeks). My daughter isn't good with names and I don't really know the other kids, so when it was time for her first field trip - I signed right up. I was hoping to see first hand whom was picking on her, and boy did I see it.

The boy's name is Louis (changed name for privacy issues). We went to the Olde Mist Grill here in Logan. It was a great field trip, for the kids. However, the little snot that was picking on her decided to pick on her right to my fucking face - with comments like "K is a big baby" *insert crying motions here*. He pulled her hair on the bus, spit on her and even got another little girl (this other little girl has all the ear-marks of a "mean girl" in the making) to assist him in picking on her. The "mean girl" even went so far as to tell all of the other children, that kids with orange shirts on (my daughter was the only one wearing orange) were bad and not to be friends with her. Luckily none of the other kids listened to her. The nerve of that little snot, coming to MY face KNOWING I'm her mother and talking shit about her to ME! He did this numerous times on the field trip.

So, obviously after the field trip, I mentioned something to her teacher. Let me just say this: her teacher is about 24 yrs old, no kids, and newly married. On the field trip, we rode the city bus to our location, and she literally acted like the students didn't exist. When it came to entertaining the kids - I had to do it. Silly games, silly songs - all me. When it came to the kids not being able to see over each other, I was right there helping them or even sometimes picking them up. So, yeah, this isn't a great teacher. I also extremely dislike teachers whom teach kids, but don't have kids of their own. Some can be awesome, but most are fucking terrible with kids. Anyways...

So, I mention it to the teacher, and she is surprised that my daughter has been getting picked on. Really??? Okay...it took 5 minutes around the little snot to realize what was going on. So, she takes the little boy aside and talks to him about how picking on others is bad etc. Then, like the horrible teacher she is, brings him towards me (that's a bad idea - I'm a very angry parent at this time). So, now, I need to accept his fake apology and act like it's not a big deal. That is a HORRIBLE idea! Yes, pull him off to the side and talk to him about it. But, do NOT, NOT, bring him 5minutes later to me (right after you SAW how angry I was about it?) and expect me to accept this little shit's apology. Naturally, I'm a good parent and explained that it was okay but not to let it happen again. That if he wanted to be friends with my daughter, then good. But seriously? You couldn't just pull the snot aside by yourself? I know you wanted me to see that something had been done about it, but that REALLY WAS NOT the best way to handle that.

Ugh! Aside from the issues with the little snot, my daughter has been coming home with 4 HOURS of homework a NIGHT. The teacher has these little folders (yellow and purple) that the kids bring home with them, filled with new homework. Mind you, these are 5 yr olds, and most require the PARENT to read them off to their child because the children can't READ. It takes me 2 hours to seperate all the junk (my daughter's backpack is constantly full of crap the teacher sends home) from the homework - most of the crap is actually mixed and stapled onto the homework. Then it takes 4 hours doing her nightly homework with her. Can you imagine that? Getting a 5 yr old to sit still that long?! Oh my fucking god. It's such a pain in the ass.

Then, to top it all off, I got a call this friday telling me that her speech teacher is going to be sending home even MORE homework. Are you fucking shitting me?! COME ON! I've sat in with my daughter's class and the teacher pretty much just plays with them all day long (2 hours of school just about), then they come home with all the important shit that the parents have to help with. This teacher is pretty much fucking worthless.

I'm going to talk to a neighbor of mine whom does homeschooling, about how she feels about this whole mess. It's either I homeschool her, the neighbor homeschools, she stays in school where she is, or I enroll her in the charter school.

But, my question for you all is: how much homework is too much for kindergarten? I feel 6 hours (starting monday) is WAY too much homework. I'm just tired of all the bullshit I need to do. Let's not even get started on the extra projects these tools keep giving my kid (the gingerbread man is missing!). I'm seriously losing it.

PS. My daughter has been getting tested all year, and coming home with failing grades (yet the teacher says she's doing amazing??). Do you know she was required to write out her full 9-letter name, her address, her phone number? Do you know she's also required to be able to rhyme 30 words easily, count to 30, know how to write/read upper and lowercase letters, how to draw triangles - squares - rectangles - circles and be able to write down what they are, know all the starting sounds of all letters, and know how to read a set list of words (and at the me etc). That's just the start of the requirements. Do you know if your child fails something, it's usually because the person testing them asks the questions off a set script. My daughter didn't know the meaning of the word "sort" (we call it grouping) and failed that section.

So yeah, I feel like this "kindergarten" - which by the way isn't required by the state to attend, is overrated. I remember kindergarten being a play time, without all these crazy requirements. Why is it my daughter learns nothing at school, comes home and learns it from me...instead of the teacher? Why is it that they require and test our children for all this insane list of shit, when they aren't learning it at school?!

Monday, October 10, 2011

Injections Updated

Meant to update this earlier. Had it all written out, then my power went out - again. Not sure why, but my power goes out every 2-3 days for no reason at all. It completely baffles the power company too. They are no help at all.

Anyways...I had my new treatment done about 2 weeks ago. It turns out that the injections I was getting were supposed to only be done 1-2 times a YEAR. I was doing at least double that. Apparently, it has the potential to completely kill off ALL nerve endings ALL OVER your body. Not just where the injection spot is. So, as a precaution you are only supposed to have it done sparingly. This was not the case with me, obviously.

So, my doctor did some quick thinking and she swapped some of the fluids in the injections. She basically lessoned the "alcohol"-content vs. the numbing content. So, basically what she did was added in even more numbing medication into the injections instead of more alcohol-shit. Which is good, because it didn't hurt near as much.

However, after two weeks of the new injection, my cyst has already come back. With the old injections, I was lasting about a month before the cysts would come back and 2-3 months before I needed another injection. Great. So, it seems that while it helps with not killing me - it doesn't seem to stand up to the "no cyst test". The old injections were obviously better.

But, are the injections better compared to everything else I have tried? Yes. The overally consesus I have is yes. Sure, the injections hurt like a fucking bitch. But, in the end, the injections have actually stopped the cysts from recurring so often. That is a definate good sign.

My doctor also said that after about 3 years of these injections, they should have enough effect on my nerves and cysts to completely/hopefully stop all cysts from ever coming back. Hopefully. Time will only tell.

PS. I really hate stupid people. My original appointment was on a monday and got the phonecall verifying it on sunday. Showed up, and the new girl behind the desk told me my actual appointment was on tues instead. Really? What.the.fuck. Before you ask, I have some serious OCD. No way in hell I had the days wrong.